I am Eeyore

These few days were lousy. I feel lousy every aspects. I am as blue/grey as an Eeyore can be.
Such lousy days/feelings haunt me once every few months! Blame it on hormones or PMS is the easy way out. I think sometimes being a SAHM is really not easy. I not self praising as self praise is no praise. Till now that Alaric is already 19+ months, I am still adjusting myself every few months as Alaric is also changing every now and then.
Now that he is very clingy and trying his luck on tantrums, my weekly outing is no longer a luxury to me. It's more of a hassle as it's tough to handle him nowadays. Plus new home sweet home, I am taking up new roles and duties. All these piling up my stress level I think.
Especially on days when eating and obedience level is bad, I lose myself as a good mother and a lot of scolding and beating. I hate myself as I became a blue ugly monster.
I am one now. Sigh. Please turn me back to the normal Dominique.