First day as SAHM

Today is the first day of my SAHM life once again.
I have created another blog as I am encountering problems of blogging photos here.
www.lifebeingasahm.blogspot.com

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Happy Mothers' Day

This year, Alaric wishes me verbally! I meant he actually said: Happy Mothers' Day to me. Of course with a Muacks too.

And artwork made in school.

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Perspective of life

How one lead their life really depends on their perspective of life.
A happy life? A remorseful life? A fulfilling life? A "bitter" life?
I think first one must learn how to look at the cup of milk as half filled instead of half emptied.
Then one can look forward to filling up the cup with milk and not sulk over the other emptied half.
That is one thing I have to learn. Tough for a pessimistic person like me. Must be in the genes.

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Yumz!!!

Another great Meiji snack!!
Must try. Light and cheesy.

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Little Boyfriend I Have

I have a little boyfriend who always wanna hold my hand as we take short stroll anywhere, everywhere.

Even when at home.

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Lose my voice again!!

Third time me falling sick since I join this company in March!! Is it a sign?

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Work stress

I am beginning to doubt my own capability to handle what is being offered to me. "Offered" seems to be a kind word, I would used "pushed" to me. I feel like I am kinda drowning when I am the only marketing person multi tasking everything.
Plus the falling sick and all maybe making me feel emo and thus all the negativity arises.

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Working life

Working life had been hectic and I am still adjusting to everything. Working up early, sending rascal to school, rushing for buses and so on.
Thank goodness for Hubbs. He is on leave before he embark on his new career, starting 1st April. He had been great help. The KL business trip I had, 3 days 2 nights had provided him good father and son bonding and also given him the opportunity to learn to take great care of rascal.
Rascal and I had been falling sick frequently. Now I am down with tonsillitis and stomach flu and was even running a temperature. Alaric just stabilized his temperature on Friday and today seems warm to touch again. Sigh. Maybe I spread the virus to him? Felt so bad as he been falling sick and I gotta be at work, not able to give him my TLC.
I am like Alaric, going through CC, in my case is exposing to working environment viruses thus falling sick frequently. I must build my immunity soon so I can take care of rascal and not spread viruses to him.
I heard of many cases about frequent coughing and flu leading to lung related issues. During our last visit to PD 1 week ago,PD did mentioned that Alaric has got sensitive nose and lungs. That really set me worrying. I must go study the sharp ionizer and humidifier o see which model is good to invest before further implications develop.
Pray hard.

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Working Mummy for the first time!

Valentines Day marked an important start of our life.
I started work and Alaric starts his full day school, his day without mummy, away from home.
Lots of preparation done for his school. Speaking to teachers and principal, understanding the schedule and Alaric's habits. Bringing his favorite plush and pillow and blanket and mittens and many many more so he feels more at home. Food was another concern so I also brought along some snacks for him -biscuits, bread, fruit bar, cereal, etc.
For the first day, work was ok as I started with half day for the month of Feb and will be going full force in March. Alaric did cried at goodbye again. He cried like it's the first day of school. But he settled down quickly I left. He bath with little struggle in school as he wanted to bring along his plush with him to bath. Maybe he felt more secure with his plush then. Lunch was a full bowl and that made me so happy. He slept on his own without much patting and no carrying. Although it's only for a short hour comparing to 3 hours nap at home, I felt he did well. I picked him at 330pm on the first day. He burst into tears when he saw me. Clanged to me like a koala. I missed him too.
Day 2 was as good as day 1. But lunch wasn't good as he took only 1/3 of his lunch. Thank goodness for the biscuits. Anyway I realized that he dun fancy pasta, ESP red sauce ones.
Day 3 was good as he slept for 2 hours for his nap. Lesser crying at goodbye. No crying when I picked him at 440pm. His milk intake and meal was moderate in school too.

My first Valentine's gift from Alaric!

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Back to the Workforce

After a long haul of near 3 years, I am finally going back to the workforce. No more SAHM.
TBC

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One Eye Monster

Finally the time of the year for my rebonding again! I went on Saturday 8 Jan.
This time is at Papilio Studio - a place that I always wanted to try their rebonding services as it's highly recommended on forums.
The place is newly renovated and cosy.

SCV to watch during the long process of rebonding.


Must have for iPhone users so we can fb and surf net.
Salon have aunties serving you but don't feel turned off as they are experience and truthful. If you do not require the service, they will advise you not to do it instead of hard selling. They provide good advise and are great people to chat with.
Overall service and experience is good. It takes only 2.5 hrs and may even be faster if it's on weekday! Price is also reasonable.
Results - one eye monster!



My hair is so straight causing my fringe to fall on my face. Alaric kept sweeping my hair to the side of my face when I am carrying him. Haha. So funny!

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Giddy Spells

I had been having giddy spells for many occasion in the month of December. Felt like vomiting and felt that the world is spinning. A ball pressing on my chest from inside my body.
And sometimes even puke if I were to have oily food. The feeling sucks. I think I gotta eat healthy and drink DOM daily. Hope that will improve my health situation.
A healthier 2011, a better me!

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Merry Christmas to ME

My Christmas Gift for 2011

Finally a nice looking figure for members!

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I am a Venusian

Quoted from Man are from Mars, Woman are from Venus.
"For a Venusian, the way to feel better is to talk. So many woman today, are putting on Martian suits, working and not getting their emotional needs met during the day. Now, more than anytime in history, woman need to talk in order to find balance and wholeness. "

But I am one weird Venusian whom had been conditioned to stop talking, to clam up so there will be lesser issues and conflicts. I find talking is a hassle and problem causing.

Maybe that's why I can never find balance and wholeness. I don't know how to talk anymore.

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Lost

Never felt so weird. Like lost all connection and feels like a stranger.
Come what may.

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Feed me dumbcane

Talk Cannot hear, if hear dun understand, if understand different point of view and argue.

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Happy 7th Anniversary

Today is the 7th year that we had been together. Time flies.
七年之痒！
Hope we dun itchy and have a blissful marriage. Haha!
Thank you for everything Hubbs!

I love the flowers. Muacks.

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Lousy Day

Why must it be on a Friday?!
I just feel lousy, tired, moody and all the negative energy in me going to explode.
Maybe becoz it had been a stressful Wed to Fri and finally weekend will be off school but Mon gotta start all over again. It's very tensed up feeling I had been having and it's accumulating.
I dun even wanna cook for Alaric today. Well at least we have porridge at home for him. Once in a while we give him outside food for dinner should be ok?!? Bit honestly I do feel bad for not cooking for him.

I think I must learn not to feel bad. I had a tough week. More to come. Sigh.
I am tired.
Mentally
Emotionally
Physically
......... .... ...

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Don't be a Martyr

Read from What to Expect - The Toddler Years

Don't be a Martyr
Parents who never take the time to be good to themselves have a much harder time being good to their children. When parenthood turns into martyrdom, resentment and hostility build, often resulting in parental loss of control. So make sure you get your share of quality of time too.

I think I am sometimes to hard on myself. And never have any "me" time. I forgot how to love myself and it does affect our marriage too. I forgot how to love and focus all my attention to no one but Alaric.
Hope that sending him to school is beneficial to everyone.
I must learn how to strike a balance and love equally.

Let learning starts now for Alaric and me.

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Alaric away from mummy

Today is the second day of Alaric's school life, away from mummy.
First day was overwhelming for both of us thus I do not even have the time to blog about it.
On the first day, me and my sister Sherina sent Alaric to school as she stayed over our place the night before. Goodbye seems ok and no crying at first. Crying started about 1 hour later, around 940am.
We decided to make it a short session since it's the first day. We picked him up around 1030am. He was still in tears and cried even louder when he saw me! My heart was aching when he wanted me so much. I felt guilty having to leave him all alone in an unfamiliar place. Bad mummy!
Today, Hubbs accompanied me to drop off Alaric at school around 825am. He started crying when reached the entrance of school. We said goodbye and pass him to the teacher. I brought his favorite Bert and Goat to keep him company, at least he sees familiar things that he have at home. Of course we have the secret weapon- his elephant mittens that he will wear whenever he feels insecure.
At 910am, he somehow quiet down. Teacher passed him his Bert and Goat and he holds on to them. Maybe it calms him down little. But crying is still on and off. I will check him out at 10am.
I am sitting at the coffeshop beside the school, reading "What To Expect- The Toddler Years" and blogging this at the same time.
There is a chapter on "Parenting your Toddler" that touched on :
-Your Anger
-Out of Control Hitting
-Keeping your Cool
Now that I am all alone, I have the time to read about it. It's like a hit on the nails. I am a bad mummy whom committed the above. I need anger management.
All the above will cause emotional impact on our toddler. Somehow this make me feel that I should not regret my decision and feel bad about sending him to school. As the teachers are trained to handle them and he will have fun and learn in school. At the same time, I can keep myself sane by having little me time and learn to better handle him too. If things goes well, I can go back to work next year and strike a balance in my life and help Hubbs financially as Alaric's school fees definitely not cheap!
Time to check on him.
Keeping fingers crossed!

-Updates at 1015am
He stopped crying. It's story telling time in the other room. He is still holding on to Bert and Goat. Feeling more attached to Teacher Dilliah. Sitting on her lap, wanting to be closed to her. Maybe he finds security and feels safe with her. I am happy to see that. I peeked from the door without letting him see me. I am proud of him! :) the other girl whom was promoted from their infant care was crying a lot more than Alaric. But that also somehow triggered Alaric to cry too. But overall till now, with comparison with yesterday. Although crying starts earlier, at the door step of school, he stopped crying earlier and it's 1030am and he is still in school.
I will check on him at 1130am.
Picked him up at 1115am after his Gym Kidz. He had fun at Gym Kidz and only cried he was leaving classroom for clean up to go home.
Hope tomorrow he can join for lunch.
Home sweet home.

Taken at home void deck.

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