Alaric away from mummy

Today is the second day of Alaric's school life, away from mummy.
First day was overwhelming for both of us thus I do not even have the time to blog about it.
On the first day, me and my sister Sherina sent Alaric to school as she stayed over our place the night before. Goodbye seems ok and no crying at first. Crying started about 1 hour later, around 940am.
We decided to make it a short session since it's the first day. We picked him up around 1030am. He was still in tears and cried even louder when he saw me! My heart was aching when he wanted me so much. I felt guilty having to leave him all alone in an unfamiliar place. Bad mummy!
Today, Hubbs accompanied me to drop off Alaric at school around 825am. He started crying when reached the entrance of school. We said goodbye and pass him to the teacher. I brought his favorite Bert and Goat to keep him company, at least he sees familiar things that he have at home. Of course we have the secret weapon- his elephant mittens that he will wear whenever he feels insecure.
At 910am, he somehow quiet down. Teacher passed him his Bert and Goat and he holds on to them. Maybe it calms him down little. But crying is still on and off. I will check him out at 10am.
I am sitting at the coffeshop beside the school, reading "What To Expect- The Toddler Years" and blogging this at the same time.
There is a chapter on "Parenting your Toddler" that touched on :
-Your Anger
-Out of Control Hitting
-Keeping your Cool
Now that I am all alone, I have the time to read about it. It's like a hit on the nails. I am a bad mummy whom committed the above. I need anger management.
All the above will cause emotional impact on our toddler. Somehow this make me feel that I should not regret my decision and feel bad about sending him to school. As the teachers are trained to handle them and he will have fun and learn in school. At the same time, I can keep myself sane by having little me time and learn to better handle him too. If things goes well, I can go back to work next year and strike a balance in my life and help Hubbs financially as Alaric's school fees definitely not cheap!
Time to check on him.
Keeping fingers crossed!

-Updates at 1015am
He stopped crying. It's story telling time in the other room. He is still holding on to Bert and Goat. Feeling more attached to Teacher Dilliah. Sitting on her lap, wanting to be closed to her. Maybe he finds security and feels safe with her. I am happy to see that. I peeked from the door without letting him see me. I am proud of him! :) the other girl whom was promoted from their infant care was crying a lot more than Alaric. But that also somehow triggered Alaric to cry too. But overall till now, with comparison with yesterday. Although crying starts earlier, at the door step of school, he stopped crying earlier and it's 1030am and he is still in school.
I will check on him at 1130am.
Picked him up at 1115am after his Gym Kidz. He had fun at Gym Kidz and only cried he was leaving classroom for clean up to go home.
Hope tomorrow he can join for lunch.
Home sweet home.

Taken at home void deck.